Untukmu Sahabat..

.:TRIBUTE TO ALLAHYARHAM MOHD NURIDHAM:.

You are very special
there is no one just like you
created by the Master
Allah created you
You are very special
exclusively design
you are very special
And I'm so glad you're mine

Pride little eyes He gave you
To help you find your way
may Allah promp and wisdom
to see you through each day
you are very special

there's only one of you

you are very special
and remember He loves you

Mat,u are my forever fren. U are my fren in dis world n the world after...
I'll never 4get u...
Smoge Kau tenang di sana..
Ya Allah,placed him among soleh and solehin's....
Al-Fatihah..
Huda sygkn Mat.....

Raya dan Tragedi

On this day, sgt2 buhsan........xdek pn kengkawan yg dtg uma aku..
aku pn berazam lah utk fly g tc ngn myrah....Last2 x dpt pon.bapak myrah lak x bg..huu~~
Geram!
Then,dtg lak femily mak cik aku nie......aku dah la buhsan+xde mood utk melayan owg...
ta0 x sbb ape,aku kai bju kurong n selendang belit2 tuh..pastuh,dye kate

"Kak,terus terang la x lawa sgt awk pakai mcm tu.."
"Aku pn jwb,em...oke!"

Saket aty aku doe.....Sedih sekali.mau nangis!!
Ape lagi,tebal muke n setepek kat c2..Aku pn bwk la aty aku yg lara msk bilik tok aku n tido.
Bapok best!
Then,aku bngon n makan.lapor thap gaban dah..lapa gler(pdhal mse pg2 da mkn da).haha...
Pastu aku pn duk la lyn feeling yg buhsan smbil2 on9...aku pn tata0 bnde yg aku wat ary tuh.sangat buhsan....buhsan gler.nk pecah kepale otak aku..
Mse lam kul 6 ptg gitu,de la 1 num x knal ni col aku..aku engat mangkuk mane la yg nk kaco aku lagi...selame aku pakai fon dah nak dekat 10 sim kad jugak aku tuka.coz,x tahan kena kaco.huhu....skg pn kne agy..
Giler tensyen!
Upe2nye yg col aku tuh,shila membe childhood akuh......aku di kejotkan dgn brite yg sangat memilukan..
"Shila:Nabila,ko ade dnga cte x?"
"Aku jwb ah:cte pe?ne aku ta0"
"Shila:weyh,Mamat da meninggal"
Ase cam dalam mimpi jek ape yg aku dengar tuh.....
Mamat,membe yang agak closed ngan aku dah pegi menemui Ilahi petang tu.sbb accident..
Aku agak tertampar ngn brite tu.....x keruan jadinye..mcm2 lam otak akuh pk.
nak2 lepas aku col epis(kwn mamat n kwn aku) utk confirmation,dye tnga nanges........
ase cm jantung jatoh ke perot.cm getting faint pun ade.
Ya Allah,sampai skg pn aku still rase cam x caye yg arwah da pegi tnggalkan aku utk slame2nye..
Aku cam terkilan giler x dpt tgk arwah utk kali terakhir.....
Aku terkilan jugak,nta cane ley jadi renggang ngn dye.sedangkn mse before spm n mse before aku keje pas spm; aku memang rapat ngan dye.lau kuar g Megamall,Kuantan msti jumpe dye.pastu lepak skali.miss that moment....dye seorg yg happening sgt2...................lau korg jmpe dye pn,x ase cm korg baru jek knal dye.coz,dye mmg pramah.dye len dpd owg len....
payah nak cri insan seperti dye..x sangka raye yg sepatotnye jadi Kegembiraan aku,end up with Sad Ending......
i miss him.totally......
ase sgt2 lost....

The Story Of The Girl

I am just an ordinary girl that having the simple life as a teenage,muslimah,daughter,a friend and someone's lover. It was so hard to be what we want to be. And having the life as a teenage was so damn difficult. When we trying to search for our own identity it will brought u into too many troubles and give u such an amazing memories that teach u the meaning of the true life.

Sometimes,many people can't accept who u are as u do. They just want u to be like they want.
When u facing this, u will think that they are such a cruel person's in the world. That's what I felt when I am being controlled about covering our aurah. It's mean I can't wear what I want. I have to follow another people flows.. I can't be what I want.. My mother was the one that really strict in this. This is because,she don't want her family to talking shits behind us. I never feel the satisfaction of the teenage life. I'm so envy with my friends that can feel the happiness of the teenage life. I felt so damn stressful when facing these craps... I don't like other people interfere in my business. But i'm not afford tostop them.

I have my own rights.... I want to live my life. I appreciate what they did for me was for my benefits. But,they used the absolutely wrong ways to change me..

They expect me to listen for them everything.. I am not robotic okey! I can't setup my mind to listen everything n obeys each instructions that pop out from their mouth.. Argh! I can't stand with this...! Help me out from here.....please2 !!
waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa~~~~